It's Positive!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(This is the Test The Pos. is not very Dark but it's There)


Well how do I say it, Yeap I tested pos. yesterday (I'm 2 days Late) Now I don't Know what to think. I'm OK w/ it I realy am but, w/ Christian being a preemie now only 4 months old and all that he went threw I realy didn't want to get pregnant. Not that I won't love this baby (I already do) it's just happening so fast. Not to mention now worrying about having another Preemie. I'm fertile and the docs new that but 4 different docs wouldn't give me any birth control. I wanted the depo shot but it made me bleed in the past and they didn't want to try it. The pill affects my heart so that wasn't an option. I was OK w/ trying the shot all I had to do was take hormone pills again if the bleeding started. But no they wouldn't. So our methods apparently not very affective.

I already have 3 kids age 2 1/2 and under! And PreTeens, and a 5 year old. Will I be able to do it? Especialy w/ Christian being a preemie and having medical problems. OH Man the more I think of it scares me to DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!

I went to a doctor today and she confirmed I am definetly Pregnant. All I can say is I will need the Lords strength more now than I ever did. I am Happy but Scared, Heck I have the right to be look at what I've been threw!

What A Week!

(What A Smile!!!)

This last week has been Hectic to say the least, Christian is doing good, He's not peen using the bathroom and hadn't had a BM in a week so off to the doc we went considering every thing we tried didn't do no good. We did every thing from juice, warm bath w/ tummy massage down to Karo syrup. Unfortunately Dr. Vogt decided he needed glycerin suppository's. Apparently it was all he needed lol. Talk about the little guy feeling so much better :)

(Daddy's Helper)

Christian finally reached 10 pounds YAY at 16 weeks (4 months) He's finally filling out his clothes. Dr. Vogt wants to keep him on the high cal. milk until he reaches a good weight b/c he is still in the 3rd percentile.

Monday I had an episode of waking up in severe pain in my lower back that radiated to my stomach. My stomach was sour and I was vomiting. I was in horrible pain that James came home. After a few agonising hours I was feeling allot better so we thought maybe a virus? I was OK Tuesday but once this morning hit I was in pain again I waited and waited for it to go away finally I called my Best friend and she came to take me to the hospital. Turns out I have a severe Kidney infection (OUCH) Hopefully I'll feel better soon.

Nevaeh my little girl has definitely a princess, She played dress up today and it was so cute. Who knew a 20 month old would be so girly!

(Mommy's Princess)

Levi & Nevaeh Playing

Levi and Nevaeh Playing ring around the roses, Levi gets mad at the end LOL b/c Nevaeh was done playing heehee, They grow up to fast :(

Surgery Update

Christian went threw his surgery just Great! It took about 1-2 hours and it felt like forever for me. I anxiously waited, I was so nervous and scare. I was able to monitor were he was at by his patient number by looking at this big computer. After about 30min after they took him back his nurse called to the surgery waiting to let me know that Christian went to sleep w/ no problems and that Dr. Skinner had made the first cut and to expect about 1- 1 1/2 hours before procedure is done. It seemed like the longest wait, It was allot longer than his Shunt surgery. Finally I saw on the computer board that he was out of surgery. So I waited and it wasn't but a minit or two and I saw Dr. Skinner come into the surgery waiting area, He waved for me and James to go in the conference room w/ him. He said Christian did Great that his Hernia was repaired and that he had allot of Fluid and they drained that out to and fixed that. He didn't look on the left side but there is a chance he may develop one there (I hope not) but if he does we will be right back at children's to get it done lol.

After about 30 minits later we were taken back to recovery and Christian was screaming, He was throwing a fit. I instantly got him and he looked at me w/ his big dark blue eyes and calmed down after a moment. (He just wanted his mama) After about an hour James had to leave to go to work. We really can't afford for him to of stayed so as hard as it was he went on his way.

(In Recovery)

We waited in Recovery forever b/c they didn't have any beds up stairs so after a few hours they finally got his room all set and ready. We got up there and the nurses got him all set up. He was hooked to monitors to watch his breathing, heart and oxygen levels.

(After we got to our room)

It went pretty well threw out the rest of the day. Christian actually seemed allot happier, He was smiling and just cooing away. He did however get really cranky a few times so I think he needed some pain meds but after that he was OK. Dr. Skinner came in a few times to check on him and see how he was doing.

(Laughing at mommy)

Surprisingly the little baby beside Christian was also from the same county as us lol Even our 5 year old's had the same teacher It was pretty cool. Also Lisa came by to visit, She is baby Aiden's mom, Aiden is a preemie to and him and Christian were also neighbors in the NICU it was realy great seeing her and having a little Chat. I don't miss the NICU but I do miss the parents and Nurses I got to know. So it was a really nice visit!

Threw out the night Christian made a few alarms but nothing he didn't fix on his own so that was good. Dr. Skinner came in the morning and checked Christian out and released us to go home.

On Our way out we stopped and chatted w/ one of the girls we got to know at the NICU that worked there and that was also nice. It's funny how you miss those little chats lol.

Christian is doing great still, he seems more happier now. He is the most active baby lol he constantly is wiggling and kicking lol I love it! Just watching all that he is doing right now lifts my spirits and helps me know that my Baby is going to be OK and prove all those doctors Wrong.

Getting Ready for Surgery

Christian's Surgery is set for tomorrow :( I am so nervous....I know he will be fine but I am a mom and I worry, Can't help it...LOL It's what I do best! We are to be at the hosp by 5:45A.M. OMG I have to head out atleast by 4:30 in the morn :( I'll be glad that his Hernia gets repaired but any surgery has it's risks. Hopfully we will be hom Friday evening if all goes well. Keep us in your prayers. I took him to the Pediatrician yesterday just to make sure he was physicaly OK to have the Surgery and she said he was OK. He still has sniffles and we are thinking it's Alergies. He's had them over a month w/ no sign of infections. He's up to 9 pounds 11oz Wow almost 10 pounds now WOOOHOOO!!!!! He's finally packing on the weight.

Surgery Date Set

It's offical, Christian does need surgery for his hernia :( instead of waiting they will be doing it on the 4th os sept. they don't want to wait b/c they think it may of got stuck once and unstuck by the time we got to children's hosp. He will be staying over night b/c of him being a preemie and his history. Other than that he is doing ok up to 8 pound 8 oz and 21 inches. He's now 3 months old. And Geuss what, he Cooed and said Igoood a few times and is starting to smile more, he's even laughed out loud while he was sleeping, I'm so excited it's like I am a new mom and never experianced this before, A great milestone...One proud mommy right now lol

A little Update of my crazy life!

Well it's been a rather interesting month and what a first few days I have had.

OK Christian update he is doing good up to 8 pounds 2 oz 20 and a quarter inches he's really alert and acts just like a little newborn would, he can hold his head up for some time and move it around like he is looking at everyone, he is starting to show some expressions like smiling etc. I actually dried up in my breast milk unfortunately but I still have some frozen actually allot still so that's good :) A few weeks ago we had to go to the ER he went on a screaming fit and I couldn't console him at all, I went to change his diaper and his scrotum was dark BLUE I instantly buckled him in his seat called my BF told her to meet me at the ER B/C I had 4 kids w/ me all under 5. We get there and they rush him back only to say no his scrotum was fine that it was his shunt malfunctioning so they rush us on an ambulance take us to the children's hosp, Scare me to death now I am worried about 2 things, well they checked him out his shunt is fine and it is his scrotum they believe his intestines may of twisted and fixed there self by the time we got there, they sent us home said he may have a hernia. Well I take him to his ped as I feel it just doesn't look right and yeah he definitely has a hernia and needs surgery so he sees the surgeons the 22nd to make a plan of action, he's still congested and they think he is developing allergies :( Over all right now he is doing OK, I got him enrolled into First Steps (early intervention program) and they are getting PT and DI out to work w/ him since he qualified. I also talked to his ped about signing up for disability b/c medicaid is already trying to get us to purchase ins. for him, I can't afford it on me let alone him, She highly recommended me sign him out. I really hate that I need to and it bothers me some, I guess just the fact he is technically being considered disabled, Anyone feel this way? I wouldn't sign him up but I can't afford any ins. My other kids started school today and last night while I was getting their school clothes out (I had them put away so they wouldn't get ruined) I noticed all the pant I got for my 10 year old were 12's (he's in 10's) OMG I can't believe I did that, him and my oldest are on dress code so now he has no pants and I can't take them back b/c all are bargain meaning bought at good will yard sales etc. (I can't afford new) Luckily they fitted my oldest but it still left him w/ out pants so off I went to walmart to purchase a pair of pant 15 bucks OUCH those things are expensive, Thankfully the other day I fount 10's at goodwill and bought them so that's another 2 pair so hopefully I'll find some more bargains soon b/c I'm on a very tight budget, School supplies that I didn't have alone cost me 60 bucks yesterday and that wasn't all they needed, so ridicules of what things cost anymore. My 5 year old went for his kindergarten round up this morn. Were I take him and he meets his teacher finds out if morn or afternoon class etc. Well it was me him and the 3 little ones age 2, 1 and almost 3 months, Well we get in there and guess what I notice....My shirt is on inside out LOL I'm sure I got some looks lol, then Ethan didn't want to hang his person we made up so my and the teacher was talking and I noticed Nevaeh wasn't beside me, I find her around the corner watching the school kids, I get her and go back to finish talking to the teacher, a few minits go by and I look at Levi then Christian then Ethan, But hey wait a minit were is Nevaeh....I ran up and down the halls screaming her name can't find her, I'm getting hysterical tears coming to my eyes., Teacher asks me who did I loose and I said my daughter she was just here so I go running screaming like a maniac again for her and the teacher says MAM CALM DOWN SHE'S ON YOUR HIP! I felt like a idiot I didn't even realize she was in my arm LOL After that I was done so we left to go get something to eat then to Goodwill to see if I can find some more pants Well I go to pay for our food and the lady say mom we can't accept this and I say what do you mean it's a debit card, she says no mam we don't accept food stamps OMG I am going crazy So after that I went strait home lol What A wild day!